Getting lost in a video game, TV show or movie, is quiet easy. Lately though, I get lost in thought much easier. We’re fast approaching a year since Dad passed away and still not a day goes by where he’s not on my mind. At times, I feel sort of left out. Why? Believe what you will of life after death and things of that nature. But, a few friends of his have told me how Dad has come to them in a dream, since he passed. While I sit wondering, why not me? Selfish? I know, but he’s my dad, I’m allowed.
I ran across a story earlier that completely entranced me, A Son’s Race to Give His Dying Father Artificial Immortality. It’s such an amazing creation. I’d give anything to have one more conversation with Dad. To hear one more corny joke or watch one more Cubs game together. Hell, as much as it drove me up a wall, I want to hear, “Remember, it’s only a game”, one more time, when I get pissed off at bowling not going the way I feel it should.
Dadbot is both far from and close enough to the real thing. Because, let’s face it. Something is better than nothing. Reading about all the work he put into it and to see him talk to his dad, months after his passing. is incredible. Frankly, I’m jealous. Jealous that he found a way to keep his dad alive. I know that keeping my Dad around, in the simplest of ways, is through the thoughts and memories we have and share of him. But, being perfectly honest. It’s not nearly enough. I’ll eventually come to terms with it all enough that it won’t weigh me down mentally as much is it does now. If I was a betting man, I’d say sometime after Hell froze over, but that already happened last November when the Cubs got that last out.
This post is all over the map, to me anyway. Chalk it up to being 4am. I’m a bit more scatter-brained that usual (Hard to believe, I know). More than anything else, I wanted to mention the great article I read. I hope you check it out and like it as much as I did.
I have this sudden want, to watch The Crow. I’ll do that before work tomorrow. It’s been a while.
— It Can’t Rain All The Time